Let me ask you a question: Are you among the 12.3% of women in the U.S. who were sexually abused at the age of 10 or younger?
This is Mia’s story:
“At the age of seven I became a victim of evil in a human’s heart.
My mom hired a new housekeeper. She was so sweet, funny, and playful with my siblings and I. One day my mom left us at home alone with her as she went to run the usual errands.
To me that was an ordinary day, when I could just take my dolls on a ride in their new baby stroller and tell them what I had prepared for lunch. I loved covering them with blankets so they would be warm. I brought along the baby bottle and pacifiers as moms don’t like to hear their babies cry, right? Playing was fun.
The housekeeper was particularly interested in playing with me that day. And the rest of the story became a nightmare.
My innocence was interrupted that day.
My little girl’s dreamy life was forever changed.
I knew something was not right and I was warned to not tell my mom a word of what had happened or I would be in deep trouble. I believed those words and chose to be silent. I did not want to hurt my mom’s feelings. I did not want her to get hurt at all, as the threats scared me continually. It would be my fault if anything happened to her or to any of my siblings.
My mom got home hours later; too late to be my rescuer.
I felt ashamed and dirty as a child. I grew up and gave up my dolls. I was able to get rid of many things I didn’t want to keep while growing up. But I couldn’t rid myself of a tormenting memory. Memories stay there in your mind and they kill you piece by piece… if you let them.
As an adult, I carried my hatred for so long and with it the burden of feeling helpless, worthless, embarrassed, and betrayed as I had been left at the mercy of an unmerciful being.
The thought that nobody would ever truly love me haunted me for more than 15 years. I considered suicide and grasped for any possibility of being set free from that unbearable weight.
Then I was encouraged by these wise words from a Christian friend: ‘God is not finished with you’.”
“You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.” Genesis 50:20
Mia is not this girl’s real name. But she is as real as her story is.
Sadly, many women have stories like Mia’s. The horrible pain they have suffered may still be twisting their concept of their worth. The distorted and corrupted image of themselves, with which they have struggled all their lives, may be the only truth they know. The reality of evil and its effect in human being may not even be the enemy they fight against as they feel hopeless, worn and lifeless.
Today we are challenged by God’s truth, which brings light to any life in distress:
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.” John 10:10
God had called us into a safe place because of His mercy for us. Once you give it all to Jesus, all your pain, scars, and memories, and ask Him to take care of that, there is no reason to believe the lies the devil brings into your mind and live under bondage of the past. God’s grace brings life back to us through Jesus. Real life! His forgiveness brings freedom, whether we are the victims or the perpetrators. His love embraces us with hope and the assurance that the memory of such nightmare will one day come to pass and be dissipated by the light of His presence. Although you can still see the memory there, and you can remember what happened, you will not live under its shadow. The pain and hatred will be gone because Jesus will take it away from you.
There is not a thing we’ve been through that God can’t use for His purpose to be accomplished in our lives. Our stories and transparency can bring healing to others living in captivity. The restoration of emotions and one’s confidence can be a long process, but it is possible, and God in His mercy will make you a new person. We can be honest here: it’s not easy to talk about it, and only God will show you where and when you should share your story.
I am sharing Mia’s story with you because I want you to be empowered this day to pursue freedom for your emotions. If you are still living under an abusive situation, please check out our resource page and get help. There are people honestly willing to help you find peace for your soul.
You were made to live in God’s freedom.